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Greensboro has been treating me well...better than I expected...I have been avioding Charlotte for obivous reasons but saw my parents not to long ago...got my MCAT scores back..they were okay...but not good enough for me...I'll be taking it again in January to make myself feel better...school is good...work is good...new woman...she is fabulous...can't complain...miss you guys in Charlotte...mabye I'll see you guys at Caribou around thanksgiving even though I am supposed to go to the beach with my parents for a week..sounds more like a disaster than I vacation...but we all get through things...hope to see everyone soon...L'Shalom

Well I"ve made it to GSO where everything seems a lot slower and no one seems to have a job...I started my new job last Monday at Moses Cone which is the only hospital in the area...it has been fun but very tiring..lots of potential to learn new things and encounter new situations...it's the county hospital so I expected stabbings and shootings within the near future...I finally got road runner today so I've been catching up on bills and emails...and I finally getting ready to head to Wal-Mart to get some things to fix the stove...it started smoking the other day when I turned it on so I cleaned the burners and need those little metal things that go under the burner...the electricity ate my iron the other night as I was ironing my clothes for work...I turned around for a minute and the iron started smoking and clicking...in the trash it will go this morning...I lived the first 4 days here without hot water which was interesting...but now its nice and hot...at times a little to hot for me...today I'm going to venture the library, post office and do some light shopping...after I return it will be more MCAT studying and drilling...I have four weeks to prepare for the biggest exam of my life...its not a test of knowledge but a test of brain power and the ability to think and make decisions about stuff you have no idea about...I'll be in Charlotte for the exam so I"ll stop by Caribou after to decompress a little....Hope all is well and I miss you guys...If anyone is interested in coming up here to visit let me know and I'll give you directions...I work nights so hit me up in the early evening....L'Shalom

Well I'm finally moving in two days back to Greensboro...I am really excited but yet really sad...I had my last day at the hospital on sunday which ended in tears...I felt like I was leaving part of my life behind...the good news is I start my new job on Monday so I don't really have much time to dwell on the sadness..actually the truth is I've locked myself in the house since monday only leaving to go to school or to meet my dad...I've started to move my stuff into my new place and will have internet by next friday...that is if I can figure out the road runner section on the internet...school starts some time in the middle of august and I am scheduled to take the MCAT also in August...I'm hoping I do well I must admit I haven't studied much with summer school and planning the move...Anyway I plan on keeping in touch either through livejournal or myspace...if you want to find me in myspace my name is "mamie" pretty creative..HUH...hope all is well and I'll see everyone on my random trips to Charlotte....

L'Shalom

Well the weekend is well underway...I'm getting ready to meet my dad for coffee and then off to caribou to hide in the back and get loads of homework done...I have a list of shit I need to do...it's great to be back in the swing of things...anyway my surgery is going to be in about two weeks or so...soon I will be back to normal...no more throwing up or getting up and down really slow..no more searing pain in the morning and throughout the day...I'm more worried about the recovery than the actual surgery...I have to stay home on bedrest for an entire week...my mom has already been planning on ways to tie me down for a week...but we all know I'll be back on my feet in two days and driving around trying to get on with my life...things in all of the other departments is going great...I finished my time at the bucks of star last night and picked up my last check today...wasn't much but it payed the car payment...so I work all weekend...saturday and sunday then off for a bunch of days but only because I have to go and get two crowns on tuesday after physics...fun fun...single as always...the best way to be...I've decieded that school is one thing I'm good at and I should stick with it...sitting in the back of the caribou with my headphones, a bucket of pencils and my rolex are all I need to get through life...eventually one day that will change but maybe I'll switch to those mechanical ones one day...Well off to meet dad...see ya'll soon..

L'Shalom

I'm getting ready to leave for work and thought I would stop in and say hello!!!!I quit my job at Starbucks...my last day is on Thursday and I've been a little under the weather lately...the good news is I'll be around a lot more...no more of this working seven days a week bullshit...and maybe I'll make my way up to the caribou soon...hope all is well in LJ land and I promise to frequent this site more now that I have time...
L'Shalom

Ran into Julie last night in the midst of a drunken stupper...she is engaged to some dude that works with flowers...told some dude to suck my d*ck....it was a good night...I'm alright...promise...

As 2005 comes to a close I am reflecting on all that has changed in my life....

1. Julie is out of my life
2. I've got a new job at Starbucks
3. Moved out of my house and am now a landlord
4. Left nursing school to finish my BS in Chemistry and hopefully get into med school

I'm sure there are others that I can't think of off the top of my head...I am a completly different person that I was a year ago....and change is good...just hard for me to do...

I've been in my own little world lately with school and work and have been pushing a certain someone to the back burner...I feel like such an idiot and I feel like I can't call her because I'm embarrassed over the way I've treated her....I am such a horrible girl friend....forgive me sweetheart for being such an asshole....

Got my first phone bill...it was one hundred seventy dollars and some change...they pro-rate to add the next months bill so it was really only fifty nine plus all the fucking text messages that nicky sent me....

Hope all is well I'm working at the hospital for the next couple of days so I won't really be around...but I'm not really around anyway...

L'Shalom we shall see eachother sometime soon.

Well I feel like a total ass right now...I just woke up and haven't called anyone in days...even went so far as to turn the phone off this evening so I could get some sleep....I have 60 hours this week between both jobs and 54 next week without picking up anymore time...got to pay off christmas presents...

Worked at the hospital all weekend and then starbuck this morning....I only took an hour nap but it was like every one and their sister called me while I was trying to sleep...I'm going to make an effort to return all of those phone calls this evening while I attempt to wrap presents...

Well I'm opening tomorrow morning and then hopefully so sleep followed by this party I might go to with the girls from work..I'm trying to fit it with them...I don't want to be the "new girl" anymore...well see how it goes...they bought me a duct tape chain wallet for christmas that says "I love Shakira" on it....

Well off to wrap presents...

L'Shalom

Well I'm all out of the house...spent my friday evening drunk and cleaning...my tenant moved in yesterday...I think...she hasn't called or anything so I'm assuming....Mom's graduation went well....it was cold in the mountains...we spent most of the time fighting back and fourth....well I have a big week ahead of me...I'm working 61 hours between both jobs...have to buy books and pay the property taxes on the house...they are due in two weeks...but at least I don't have to pay the mortgage anymore...Anyway I'm going back to bed have to work tonight and monday night...hope all is well...I'll update more later...L'Shalom

Well thus begins another week in my life...I started the week off at the hospital working my back to back 12 hour shifts with starbucks in the middle somewhere...I have to work 8 hours in the morning followed by six at starbucks in the evening...I think I'm working every other day at starbucks this week....which leads me to an interesting twist to my already busy life....

I rented out the townhouse and the people want to move in this weekend...dad tells me today....they are signing everything and want to move in ASAP...so I have to call and get a U-Haul to get all of the furniture out...they signed a six month lease with an option to buy at the end of the lease...guess we'll see what happens....so needless to say I only have to make one more mortgage payment and then they will pay it for me....I guess that makes me a landlord or slumlord...which ever seems more appropriate...

School is over....thank fucking god...didn't think I was going to make it through...grades aren't all posted yet so I'm not sure how I did....I think i"m somewhere around 3.7 but not to sure...I'm planning on working a lot and reading great books...just finished my first for the break...it was called "with or without you"...it's a lesbian fiction novel...I suggesst it to anyone who likes to read...it actually reminded me of someone on my LJ friends list....going to start the next one here in about five minutes....updating was the little intermission between books....

Hope all is well with everyone....I will update within the next few days or at the end of the week.

L'Shalom

Just got home from work..well actually Skyland...we went there after work and ate..we had a good time....took a final exam on Monday morning..showed up really late because we lost power and I woke up when the exam started...Have my last exam on Monday morning and then done for the semester...guess I will just have to work more and save money for books...I only have three weeks to buy books and holiday presents....can't figure out if I'm going to send out Christmas cards this year or not...it takes a long time to sign and mail them out....grandma is coming to town on Tuesday...going to pick her up from the airport on Tuesday morning after work....and then come home and sleep for a long time....anyway going to type my notes for class and read a book....hope all is well....L'Shalom

Well I just got home from work...those 12 hour shifts still kick my ass...the good news is I'm not that pissed anymore...don't get me wrong I'm still mad....I guess I just cant believe someone could have the balls to talk shit about me and not even have the balls to say things to my face...anyway...

My work chirtmas party is on friday...kind of forgot about it...maybe I did that on purpose...my supervisor is bringing her boyfriend who I want to meet...she is a real big yankee and this guy puts up with her shit...she kind of mad me laugh...I asked her if I needed to bring my badge with me if I was going to go and she was like "everyone knows who you are...EVERYONE" guess I have made one hell of a name for myself...

All day I've had this horrible headache...convinced one of the doctors to acquire some Motrin for me...he was so nice....I think that is why I'm doing my internship with him in the spring....

I start finals in a few hours...I have my algebra final at 1100 and I'm planning on getting an "A"..always good to strive for the best....

My "dinner" with amanda went well last night...we went to see nicky after dinner and made her sick with "our" skoal habit...was kind of nice to hang with someone that has the same habits as me...I was planning on kissing her when we returned but it didn't happen....I think I was a little nervous and she put the car in reverse when we got in the parking lot...not the invitation that I was expecting...but it will happen if it's gods will...

My mom's graduation is in a little over a week...I must say I'm proud of her...getting her MBA and all...the college offered her a part-time teaching position for their master's program...she had a 4.0 at the end of it....she is a wonderful woman...I'm glad she is my mother...she motivates me to do wonderful things...

Starbucks is going great...it's the best job in the world....I make coffee all day and I get a discount and a free pound of coffee every week as a "markout"...I've learned much about coffee and have learned the fine art of tasting coffee...it is quite a process....

Well I should go to bed and get some rest before my final and then off to work if I don't get called off...our census is down for a little bit till around Christmas....

Hope all is well for everyone.....L'Shalom

I am writing this entry to certain someone....you will know who you are when you read this and feel free to comment back or call me..

As I layed in bed last night I recieved a phone call saying that "one of my friends thinks I'm a bad person". Now I shouldn't be pissed seeing how this statement came from someone who has no self control but it made me furious....

I have never did anything mean to you...I let you in my house...gave you a place to fuck all of those women on my couch...never requested that you do anything but give me rent every once in awhile...The only thing I didn't give you was myself...I'm sorry I couldn't give you that...

The fact that you sit there and talk shit about me makes me think less of you as a person...I actually thought you were something of a person...but now you don't even exsist to me...

However, I encourage you to come out this weekend just to see if you have the balls to say this shit to my face...I know you won't and will try and be my best friend while you have your "love of your life" around your arm....You know the girl that doesn't give a damn about you but likes to drag you along like a puppy....

I just finished shoving five hard shell tacos from taco bell into my mouth in under five minutes...working both jobs this week and school was a little tiring....I saw my mom for the first time, other that her drop-in at starbucks, in around four days....school ends in a week...I have exams next week and then I"m finished...guess it will give me an excuse to work more...with 65 hours this week with school the possiblities are endless...

I must admit I have been feeling a little mentally unstable the past week...it may be the lack of sleep and over abundance of drive-thru fast food and nicotine...I've been contemplating taking the valium in the bathroom just to get a good nights rest before I have to go to work in the evening....

Starbucks is going great...I never saw myself as the foodservice retail kind of girl but everyone I work with is awesome...they are like a little coffee family...the free coffee is a better perk then the pay check...I brought home an entire bag of christmas blend last night...the uniform is great...no scrubs...no coming home feeling like the whole world shit on you...no more adult diapers to change....but then its time to go back to the hospital...

My mothers graduation is in two weeks...she is so excited....I am excited for her...I've been saving up to buy her this tiffany's ring that matches the braclet I bought her for her b-day last year...hopefully I'll get the time to go and pick it up....thank god it's only a hundred bucks...things are still really tight even with two jobs....tuition, car payments, mortgage for a house I dont live in, HOA, etc....Hopefully the house will rent soon so I don't have to pay for it anymore....

Anyway I'm going to put my clothes away and read my "Oprah" book club book...it's called "I know this much is true"...it's actually a really good book...kind of long though...but hey it keeps me out of trouble with the ladies....

Shalom Alcheim

Nixon and I are laying in the bed...I am debating whether it is time to go to sleep or not...I've been up since yesterday morning at 1000. I've been working my ass off since I got back from the beach. I'm scheduled for 61 hours this week between both jobs....I can't wait till I'm not full time at the hospital....I got punched in the boob last night by a confused old men...I asked him if he wanted me to punch him in the scrotum...He didn't do it again....Starbucks was awesome today...my parents came into visit me...my mother said she hasn't seen me this happy in awhile...my job is perfect for me...and it's training me to work at the waffle house...I'm learning to call orders...Tomorrow night I"m going to starbucks school downtown...it's five hours of tasting coffee and pastries and other shit...I'm going to school to work at starbucks...hmmmmm...school ends in another week...I must say I'm excited about the end of the semester....I've worked really hard with work and school a nice report card would be the best present in the world...Anyway nixon and I are going to retire for the evening...just a reminder..please don't text message me...it's fucking expensive to recieve them and I can't not accept them...L'Shalom

Happy Thanksgiving everyone...the beach is great and the weather is wonderful..with my parents and their friends from florida....hope everyone is having a good holiday....I'll be back in town on saturday...working the next seven days between starbucks and the hospital...L'Shalom

Just got home from work and finished typing this article for journalism class that is due tomorrow. Got a nextel phone online two days ago it will be here in the afternoon. I'll post my direct connect info of LJ for those of you with nextel.My number will still be the same. Hope all is well and maybe I'll see you guys at caribou in the evening time. L'Shalom

So I just finished my interview at Starbucks...the hell with all of you that didn't think I was actually going to go work at Starbucks...anyway I am waiting for them to call me and tell me when my first day is....I got the job....I am a barista!!!!I wish they would call me soon so that I could go to sleep...worked last night and I'm damn tired....working on this article for journalism class still but it was originally due today and she cancelled the appointment...gave me an extra three days to pull this shit together...I will be at caribou working on it tonight after my nap....anyway got to go...L'Shalom

Well just got home from school....it was nice seeing people at the bou last night...I think fun was had by all..damn I can't believe that girl was only 14!!!!well off to fill out my starbucks application....I'm turning it in on Friday..that would be tommorrow....thanks for all those that listened to me last night...damn I hate women sometimes...you get them out of your life and then allow them in just a little and they manage to fuck everything up for the entire day....anyway got to run...

L'Shalom

Well I'm doing laundry so I'm forced to stay awake....actually I just woke up...the MEDIC assessment kicked my ass something awful...

As I expected it was less than optimal...my medical patient was dead when I got there....go figure....and my trauma patient had guts shooting out of it...out of the 30 of us that showed up only ten of us passed the test...you would think it wouldn't have take till noon to finish all the parts...anyway I slept the whole rest of the day...

Woke up and went with my parents to wendy's...can I just say that eating Chili from wendys and then going for a run is a really bad idea....anyway I made it almost all the way to the old harris teeter on rae road and had to turn around...talk about run for your life...

I went to bring the ring in that julie gave me for my birthday yesterday and one of the diamonds had fallen out...instead of repairing it they gave me a new one....holy shit....not bad customer service...anyway I have to bring it back to get it customized like the original...

Julie and I are talking again...but mostly in a friends way....we have been out a couple of times and had a few beers...it's been nice...we are actually very friendly and not so bitter...less bitter that I thought things would be...

Life at home is okay...mom and dad are still fighting like cats and dogs all of the time....but dad is getting me a job at starbucks.....yeah....mamie's dream job....anyway got to get ready for work...

L'Shalom